Zetacreations = Love
*murrs*
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January 31, 2004
Japanese Creature
You are a Dragon! Oh, but not the big fat European
version... Oh no no no you're a creature of
style and taste. You love the exotic foods of
other places and have a special place on your
pallete for arsenic, and bird's nest soup. You
are the symbol of royalty, good luck, and
enlightenment. Hey, if you're good enough, you
could even become a deity!
January 30, 2004
STUFP
OH SNAP
January 29, 2004
POPE DANCE GO
X DrGamez X: I was watching Daily Show Zen moment
X DrGamez X: And the pope was watching breakdancers
MaverickFFS: yeah
X DrGamez X: I now have more respect for chatholicness.
MaverickFFS: i saw photos on the intarweb
MaverickFFS: and now i'm hoping the car went to fund more breakdancing popeness
X DrGamez X: I was so hoping one would miss and kick him in the face
X DrGamez X: omg
X DrGamez X: best assasination evar
MaverickFFS: yes
MaverickFFS: YSE
MaverickFFS: DAMMIT
MaverickFFS: YES
Sorry Safari
Yeah, I'm here at school and just realized how messed up my page looks in Safari. Sorry Mac users, I will work on it when I get home.
And those of you who use IE:MAC - you deserve the pain you are seeing.
Fucking Bandwidth
Hopefully I wont be having those problems again.
January 28, 2004
School Shit.
Damn. Well I found out last night, thanks to Bui, that I don't have school starting today, but I have it starting tomorrow, the 29th. This sucks. I know it would be better for me than sitting around like I do all day but sheesh. First of all I have been on vacation since like the first week of December, so I'm way out of the scholastic loop. Second of all this shit is going to cost a lot. I haven't paid for tuition yet, which is due... the 30th :/ Tuition itself will be over $1,000, and that's not including books. I hate to make my parents pay for this all, so I will see if there is some sort of payment plan, so I can pay for it all by myself. I really do hate having people pay for me, especially something so big as college.
I probably should get my school stuff together. I think my backpack is still in my trunk from the last day of school over at Cal State Hayward, haha. I need to clean it out. I think I linked to a picture of it before, and if not, here it is again.
Some people ask me why don't I get a new one, seeing as this one is all beat up (even moreso irl than in that pic now). I have had that backpack since 9th grade, as the "All Your Base..." line proves. It also holds my first relic ever to be engraved into the folds of my mind, Nachos and Anarchy. Speaking of which.
Nachos and Anarchy
There is something nobody here understands about Nachos and Anarchy. They don't understand what it was. The easiest way to think of it is a version number on my life. During highschool and Jr.High, that what defined me. Nachos and Anarchy. A random rebel. Of course I was never a true rebel, but that's why it worked so well, because the phrase itself made no sense. Nachos and Anarchy was my life motto, and I won't be forgetting it any time soon.
So what is my "version number" now? That's easy, I am Gordon V.It'sTheDoc. This is my new style. No longer am I the beat up little pudgy anarchist. I now have grown into a sleek new look. More defined, more self-confident. I bring an aura that nobody can define, and when it comes down to it - I'm the Doc. There is nobody else like me.
What's to come next? Who knows. Maybe something that relates to a more deeper understanding in life.
Mindfuck of the Day*
*Mindfuck of the Day is a registered trademark of the MJKtarweb, all rights reserved.
Ahh yes. I was reading my Wired magazine and came upon an article about space and how it is ever expanding. Then I got to thinking, what would space look like if we looked from it on the outside. Then that led to, well... there be no outside if it is forever expanding. The article confirmed (to our current knowledge) that it is not expanding at an infinite rate, so that means we could go to the edge of space, and... watch the wall expand. You have to just picture that. We are in this "space", there is no outside.
To put it in perspective you can look at it like this. Right now I am in bed. Outside my bed is my room. Outside my room is my house. Outside my house is my street. Outside my street, is my city, is my county, is my state, is my country, is my continent, is my hemisphere, and is my atmosphere. Outside that is my world, t hen solar system, then galaxy. But what is outside of it all? What is outside of space? Is there an outside, and will we ever get to it?
We all live our lives, each person, living day to day. But we are insignificant.
So insignificant it's funny.
And yet we still strive to live, its amazing when you just watch people in a busy place, all interacting with each other, then realize, you are just like them. We all are the same and we are all stuck in the same little space.
Freedom
Something has been on my mind recently. It hasn't been bothering me but I seem to have an obsession with freedom. It's all I can think about. I doodle the word, I call it out, and I whisper it to myself. I don't know why, nor have any idea. I sit here in my free country, I get all my food for free, I have expressed my free thought with no sign of stopping and yet I need more freedom. It hasn't just been recently now that I think about it. I have always striven for freedom. Where do I strive? I'm not really sure, but I do. I have a feeling that little part in my brain that makes me live such a kick ass life is also trying to tell me something.
Something important.
Freedom.
Matthew
Heh... sorry you saw the naked wolf boi, couldn't resist linking it. I'll put a warning next time I do something like that. And your design still kicks ass.
Navleen
Well, I know you have two hours in your class and that's partly while I am writing this little section. It appears more people believe I am making you up than I thought so like... when I come to pick you up today, I will have my camera. 'Tis a little forewarning, but I will have my finger on the shutter button and I will stalk you until I get a picture. And remember, I got the 6x zoom. So I can be across the rotunda and still get a nice clear shot of you. Mwhaha. But seriously, I want to get a picture of us sometime, just for my own private stash, if nothing more.
It's been a while since I have seen you and at the same time I feel guilty for thinking that. I know some people who love each other and may not get to see each other on an even semi regular basis for years to come. Oh well, I guess we must treasure what we have.
Oh, and I can't remember a damn thing you taught me in Hindi, something about Shaquille O'Niel is all I can remember. Oh wait. Ji. Yes. That's... respectful, or when addressing someone older right? Please say that's right :P I don't want to be wrong on the only word I think I remember.
That remind me, I have/want to scan in that picture I did last year of a mousegirl. I keep forgetting I sketched one in government one day. 'Cause one of my furiends (furry + friend = furiend, get it? Ahh, we are so cool) says I should try to make you a furry :P That would be cute, dragging my girlfriend along to all my cons. Boy, would /that/ make things ackward.
PSA
Ok, I'm all into furries and fursuits, but when you like... are over 300 lbs. and feel the need to dress in skin tight latex and other bondage type gear, please keep that at home. That was a sight to see.
And no Cail, that dragon guy/girl wasn't inflatable, just really fat.
Bandwidth
You must excuse my site being down every so often, but I am fixing to... fix it here. Hopefully this wont continue past the end of the week. I seem to be using near 2gb a day of data transfer. That's really kick ass on my side in one part, because that means I am getting ungodly amounts of traffic to my site, but on the other hand, I have had to shut down my stuff/ folder until further notice.
Yeah. You got me so pissed I HAVE ENVOKED THE BAD DESIGN OF THE BLINK TAG.
But seriously, if you need an image hosted, ask me and I will see what we can arrange. But if you plan just to steal my bandwidth for an avatar and signature, and not tell me, then I will soon be changing anything not direct linked to go to http://goat.cx, and trust me, you don't want that.
Best Blog Contest
This idea has been floating around my mind for a bit. I was thinking about going through every blog on my list, and then picking the top 3. I would judge on look, content of posts, and how often they are updated. You won't really win anything other than my "mad crazy props"
Actually, I have to send a shout to Farhad's blog (fmstyle). This guy updated pretty good, and he has nice chunks for posts, and HE GETS CLOSE TO NO COMMENTS. What the hell is wrong with people, I believe if you are too lazy to comment on your friends blog, you don't deserve one in the first place, its that simple.
If you are TOO LAZY to respond to YOUR FRIEND, then you should have NO RIGHT in making a place to talk about yourself. I comment like a bitch on all blogs on my list, because I know how good it feels to read a couple of comments after you spend 30-50 minutes on a post about your life that most people could care less about.
Anthrocon 2004
Damn I can't wait until AC. I just want to go a furry convention, not so much for the events this time, but to meet all my friends. I want to meet up with Nimbus, Psyco, Riiko, Eevee, Hulex, and whoever else can pull their arses over there. I probably should pre-register, but I have to wait until I have a bit more financial security. And I have to start saving up, I didn't realize this semester was going to cost so much :/
I estimate the trip being at LEAST $1,000 if I don't buy anything other than the ticket, food and board.
Postcards
I want to start sending postcards. No real reason, I just know I love to get mail and so others might love to get mail as well. Maybe if I could ever improve my art skill, I would doodle a little cute thing on the card and mail it off, with no real explanation or anything. But speaking of mail, boy I do get some interesting packages lately. Navleen, you already know about this one, I'm just letting the people know about my "Last Laugh". Of course I will just leave it at that, I'm sure their deviant imaginations can think of what I bought.
AND NO IT'S NOT PORN.
...even though I would guess that if I was you.
January 27, 2004
Vibrate
Bonsai Cat
Smut
Ya know... I almost posted a furry smut picture on here, cause I thought it was nice looking. Then I remembered 98% of my readers 1. Don't know what a furry is. 2. Would prefer not to see a naked wolf guy.
Oh well, your loss.
Heh... couldn't resist.
January 26, 2004
Whats Been Crackin?
Nothing really. Nothing at all.
January 23, 2004
wtf?
http://www.iupload.net/012004/potatosalad1.gif
http://www.iupload.net/012004/supermodelintro.gif
http://iupload.net/012004/supermodelcut.gif
http://iupload.net/012004/supermodelchicken1.gif
January 22, 2004
Sweet mother of PS God.
http://bbs.popv.net/dispbbs.asp?BoardID=26&id=257280
Photoshop e-penis.. feeling smaller...
Kitty!
Just cause there wasn't enough fuzz in here.
January 21, 2004
I really hate college
I was thinking today and it suddenly hit me. College... really sucks. Its not fun party time for me. I still live at home. My two chances to get classes have fucked up because of my ceramics class in 12th grade, long story, and so far NOTHING has been great about it. I have made no new friends, gone no new places, and learned nothing fun.
I talk to my friends who love college, and some who just get to live in a dorm. Thats what I want. I want to live in a dorm, be away from home and live a normal college life. Sure I dont' have to pay for anything here but its boring. I have no freedom. I just got my paycheck which I was going to save to get a new compy, when Gene reminded me about having to buy books. Thats over 300 if I find cheap ones. Ugh. Seriously. Mr. French, I doubt you will ever read this, but not giving me that C- has made the first year of my collegate life a living suckfest :/
FC
Yeah. I was going to go to FC. Lets see how much money I have left.
Soul Force
You are guided by lightning. You live for
adreneline. You live life to its fullist,
regardless of the effects. You can be somewhat
chaotic to be around.
What force is your soul?
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January 19, 2004
I AM The Mini-Golf King
Yeah... I kick so much ass in Mini-Golf it hurts. We went to Milpidas Golfland, they have a really bitchin' arcade.
Cail outside the second half of the arcade.
The DDR machines in the first half. 4th Mix+ and 7th Mix. (Not Pictures) Disney Rave, Beatmania, Para Para Para.
After playing a lot of DDR, this is THE game to play, there is a fan that shoots cold air down at you :P
I forget what song this was, but it was Neo something, it was a DDR Extreme machine. I have a video of a bit of his playing, it was crazy how fast he was moving.
Brother about to play DDR Max
Cail using his massive amount of change to get a soda.
WELCOME TO DOCWORLD! MWHAHAHAHA!
qTiP b0y #2
qTiP b0y: i just made my afternoon exciting
qTiP b0y: as i said i was cleanig your mouse
qTiP b0y: then i turned it over and the wheel popped out
X DrGamez X: hahaha
qTiP b0y: now i must take apart my other mouse to see how it works
qTiP b0y: weee
qTiP b0y: alt tabbing eveyrthing is fun
qTiP b0y: i had to do that at school one time
qTiP b0y: when the mouse wasn't working
X DrGamez X: ;..;
X DrGamez X: Poor mouse
X DrGamez X: BE STRONG LOGITECH
X DrGamez X: BE STRONG
qTiP b0y: big brother logitech is refusing to open
X DrGamez X: haha
X DrGamez X: It saw what you did to the little one
X DrGamez X: It is fearing for its lift
X DrGamez X: life*
qTiP b0y: haha
qTiP b0y: i should take a picture
qTiP b0y: fuck i need a mouse for that
qTiP b0y: hahah
What the Hell is going on?
I have reverted my blog the default styles. Why? Well I have so heavily modified my own that I can't design properly anymore, so bear with these ugly ones for a bit.
Rules of Anime.
http://www.livejournal.com/users/joker101/172992.html
If they were smart enough to use a blog with trackback features, I would do it that way, but instead, I link.
RULES OF ANIME!
#1 - Law of Metaphysical Irregularity: The normal laws of physics do not apply.
#2 - Law of Differentiated Gravitation: Whenever someone or something jumps, is thrown, or otherwise is rendered airborn, gravity is reduced by a factor of 4.
#3 - Law of Sonic Amplification, First Law of Anime Accoustics: In space, loud sounds, like explosions, are even louder because there is no air to get in the way.
#4 - Law of Constant Thrust, First Law of Anime Motion: In space, constant thrust equals constant velocity.
#5 - Law of Mechanical Mobility, Second Law of Anime Motion: The larger a mechanical device is, the faster it moves. Armored Mecha are the fastest objects known to human science.
#6 - Law of Temporal Variability: Time is not a constant. Time stops for the hero whenever he does something 'cool' or 'impressive'. Time slows down when friends and lovers are being killed and speeds up whenever there is a fight.
#7 - First Law of Temporal Mortality: 'Good Guys' and 'Bad Guys' both die in one of two ways. Either so quick they don't even see it coming, OR it's a long drawn out affair where the character gains much insight to the workings of society, human existence or why the toast always lands butter side down.
#8 - Second Law of Temporal Mortality: It takes some time for bad guys to die... regardless of physical damage. Even when the 'Bad Guys' are killed so quickly they didn't even see it coming, it takes them a while to realize they are dead. This is attributed to the belief that being evil damages the Reality Lobe of the brain.
#9 - Law of Dramatic Emphasis: Scenes involving extreme amounts of action are depicted with either still-frames or black screens with a slash of bright color (usually red or white).
#10 - Law of Dramatic Multiplicity: Scenes that only happen once, for instance, a 'Good Guy' kicks the 'Bad Guy' in the face, are seen at least 3 times from 3 different angles.
#11 - Law of Inherent Combustability: Everything explodes. Everything.
First Corrallary: Anything that explodes bulges first.
#12 - Law of Phlogistatic Emission: Nearly all things emit light from fatal wounds.
#13 - Law of Energetic Emission: There is alway an energy build up (commonly referred to as an energy 'bulge') before Mecha or space craft weapons fire. Because of the explosive qualities of weapons, it is believed that this is related to the Law of Inherent Combustability.
#14 - Law of Inverse Lethal Magnitude: The destructive potential of a weapon is inversly porportional to its size.
#15 - Law of Inexhaustability: No one *EVER* runs out of ammunition. That is of course unless they are cornered, out-numbered, out-classed, and unconscious.
#16 - Law of Inverse Accuracy: The accuracy of a 'Good Guy' when operating any form of fire-arm increases as the difficulty of the shot increases. The accuracy of the 'Bad Guys' when operating fire-arms decreases when the difficulty of the shot decreases. (Also known as the Stormtrooper Effect) Example: A 'Good Guy' in a drunken stupor being held upside down from a moving vehicle will always hit, and several battalions of 'Bad Guys' firing on a 'Good Guy' standing alone in the middle of an open field will always miss.
First Corrallary: The more 'Bad Guys' there are, the less likely they will hit anyone or do any real damage.
Second Corrallary: Whenever a 'Good Guy' is faced with insurmountable odds, the 'Bad Guys' line up in neat rows, allowing the hero to take them all out with a single burst of automatic fire and then escape.
Third Corrallary: Whenever a 'Good Guy' is actually hit by enemy fire, it is in a designated 'Good Guy Area', usually a flesh wound in the shoulder or arm, which restricts the 'Good Guy' from doing anything more strenuous than driving, firing weaponry, using melee weapons, operating heavy machinery, or doing complex martial arts maneuvres.
#17 - Law of Transient Romantic Unreliability: Minmei is a bimbo. (* Note: The Minority Opposition in Ohio disagrees and thinks all men who like this stuff need to get out more. *)
#18 - Law of Hemoglobin Capacity: The human body contains over 12 gallons of blood. Sometimes more.
#19 - Law of Demonic Consistency: Demons and other supernatural creatures have at least three eyes, loads of fangs, tend to be yellow-green or brown, but black is not unknown, and can only be hurt bladed weapons.
#20 - Law of Militaristic Unreliability: Huge galaxy-wide armadas, entire armies, and large war-machines full of cruel, heartless, bloodthirsty warriors can be stopped and defeated with a single insignifigant example of a caring/loving emotion or a song.
#21 - Law of Tactical Unreliability: Tactical geniuses aren't....
#22 - Law of Inconsequential Undetectability: People never notice the little things.... Like a missing body part, or wounds the size of Seattle.
#23 - Law of Juvenile Intellectuality: Children are smarter than adults. And almost always twice as annoying.
#24 - Law of Antagonistic Americanthropomorphism: The really nasty 'Bad Guys' are always skinny Americans.
#25 - Law of Americanthropomorphistic Intellectual Inferiority: The stupid 'Good Guys' are always big Americans.
First Corrallary: The only people who are more stupid than the big dumb Americans are the American translators. (Sometimes referred to as the Green Line Effect)
Second Corrallary: The only people who are more stupid than the American translators are the American editors and censors.
#26. Ever cat/elvan/animal/ girl must be in skimpy clothing.
#27. Tentecales are naughty.
# 28. Robots must battle other robots.
# 29. Robots, during battle, must destory large suspisiously empty buildings.
See you Space Cowboy...
I am sitting here right now watching Cowboy Bebop on Cartoon Network, they are showing the first episode: Asteroid Blues.
You don't know anything about the characters, what they do, their names, nothing. What makes this series so great is you dont' need to know. You can instantly identify with each kind of character and by the end, you're hooked to watch more.
And that oh so great line. "See you space cowboy..."
January 18, 2004
Night People
You people need to stay up and comment when I am awake and active, like 3am.
January 17, 2004
Half-Life
I forgot how nice Half-Life was. I have been playing Opposing Force and Half-Life user made addons for a bit now, and scaring the shit out of myself. God I love this game and I can't wait until Half-Life 2. Why you ask? Is it the crazy mad graphics? The explination of Xen? What is City 17?
Fuck no.
I have a score to settle with G-Man. I know that sounds funny but I remember playing Half-Life for the first time and seeing this guy. He was everywhere and did nothing to help me. I had a dream about him just watching as I struggled to fight for my life. Watching me. Those unblinking eyes... just peering. And then... I accepted a job from him.
...
What is it G-Man? What is my job? Where was Sheppard taken to be silenced? And what about Barney who escaped? Answer me! FOR GOD SAKE I NEED ANSWERS!
January 16, 2004
Mind Spooging
What happened Yesterday?
Yeah, here is a transcript, hopefully you can read through the mjktarweb dialect.
MaverickFFS: wtf happened?
X DrGamez X: there were lockers at school
X DrGamez X: and I leaned against them
MaverickFFS: do i want to know?
MaverickFFS: oh
MaverickFFS: n/m then
X DrGamez X: and my shoes went "Friction?"
X DrGamez X: And I slid down
MaverickFFS: ow
MaverickFFS: OWTF
X DrGamez X: Metal hunk on lockers> kekeke
X DrGamez X: Back> onos *rip*
MaverickFFS:
X DrGamez X: Doc> Fua!ck!
X DrGamez X: * Doc twitches and jumps up kind of hobbling around in pain
MaverickFFS: kekekeke
X DrGamez X: Sad part is
X DrGamez X: WHen I felt the wound
X DrGamez X: I was like "score, this is getting blogged"
MaverickFFS: . . .
X DrGamez X: then winced in pain again
MaverickFFS: wow
X DrGamez X: Yeah
MaverickFFS: i have
X DrGamez X: Attention Whoring to the max
MaverickFFS: no idea how to reply to that statement
January 15, 2004
Cut my back
... Ouch. Now my back hurts.
January 14, 2004
;_;
Welcome to Your Blog Makes Baby Jesus Cry!
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Doc Shit-O-Meter 7/10
January 13, 2004
Window
Apparently windows steam up faster than I thought.
January 11, 2004
Happy Weekend!
I guess I should update you with my weekend, figuring everyone else did on their blogs.
Navleen
I got to see Navleen on Saturday, I met up with her over at the library where she was doing some work on a project due in two days :P. We found some time alone, which was nice, and it just felt really nice to see her again. Oh so nice. She drew a smiley face on the back of my neck when I was being a brat and pretending to sleep and apparently I forgot about it and didn't wash it off as good as I thought I would. Since it now is a bit faded it looks like a tattoo, and because it is upsdie down it looks like some kind of tribal mark or something. I can't see it so I just take people's word :P
And I really have to get my digicam around her to show you all what she looks like. Other than that one picture I posted eons back. She's so cute. I don't know what really brought this on, but she is. I'll even go so far to say she is the most beautiful girl I have ever seen; then again, I may have a small bias n..n.
Mitsubishi Gooo!
You all know the bling bling F-150 I have? Well... now you do anyways. The moonroof had a problem with the seal, so we had to bring it into Ford to get it fixed up. It was taking forever so in compensation they let us use a rental car, free of charge. Its a red Mitsubishi Lancer. First, it was red - so I fell in love with it. Then I realized its a rental, so I was doing everything short of crashing into shit with it. The only downside is the power. I pressed pedal to the floor NUMEROUS times, and I never even felt a kickback. It would take well over 7 seconds to hit 60 from 0.
:/ My Honda blows that fucking thing out of the water, and its just a stock '96 accord.
StarFox Adventures
Well I finally went and picked up this game, figuring I was the only furry in the known universe who didn't have it. It's... ok. Nothing amazing or spectacular, just a really solid adventure game. I only played a couple of hours on it though, so all is well up in the hizood.
Steam
I also finally got my Half-Life Platinum pack from eBay shipped this past weekend. I missed HL so much, and now I can relive all its former glory. I found out I needed Steam or soemthing, and downloaded it, which took a while. Once I had everything all working though, and added Bui to my list, it was a plesant suprise. Its like the working of Gamespy, without the ghettoness of Gamespy. Everything feels a lot more 'complete' and I still don't understand why there is no love for the steam on most servers.
PS: Concmaps = fun but evil.
Brother
Just to let you know, Anthony is my brother and a lot of shit went down. Apparently he has been skipping school, and going across the street with a group of friends to smash up some apartments, get drunk and high. The cops found him and of course, being the genious he was, he was the only one to run. He was gone until 1amish, where we found him in the basement. He now is facing accusations of 2 felonies, possesion, and use of illegal substances under age. So... yeah.
Oh yeah, he's 14.
SJSU Classes
Tomorrow I get to register for classes. I know there isn't anything left but at this time, I could care less. I just want 3 more classes to fill up my schedule, and hopefully I can get into an art class or something.
January 10, 2004
qTiP b0y #1
X DrGamez X: I'll be playing HL2 in the box
qTiP b0y: haha what do you mean by that
X DrGamez X: Like I will install it to the cardboard box
X DrGamez X: And play from there
qTiP b0y: haha
X DrGamez X: Cause my compters can't handle it
qTiP b0y: aww
X DrGamez X: So I'm just going to buy it
X DrGamez X: And probably not open it until I can install it
qTiP b0y: well if you are in my geolgy class
X DrGamez X: VINTAGE BABY! VINTAGE
qTiP b0y: you can play on my computer
X DrGamez X: Oh really? Rock on! :D *shotgun to crotch*
X DrGamez X: Thats just what I want to do
qTiP b0y: haha
X DrGamez X: Play HL2 for a few minutes
X DrGamez X: Then you go home
qTiP b0y: ut2003 runs lag free on here
X DrGamez X: And I slam penis in car door to reduce erection
qTiP b0y: at like max
qTiP b0y: hahaha
qTiP b0y: that's digusting
X DrGamez X: haha
X DrGamez X: funny image
X DrGamez X: Dod dooo dooo *slam*
X DrGamez X: Oh I hate my life~ *slam*slam*slam*
X DrGamez X: *singing* wish my computer didn't suuuuck~ *slam*slam*slam*
Mmm... Useless Key
The windows key!, you are obviously very helpful
and in a way, the windows key helps you too.
Which key on the keyboard are you?
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January 9, 2004
Anthony
He's home now, scared and confused, but safe. So I feel... a lot better.
In other news, here is my VW Golf again.
I have been asked why I keep such a wierd looking car. I know I could get a hella sweet looking Miata or something, but I like how goofy this thing is in comparision to how much ass it kicks ingame.
January 8, 2004
Anthony
Come home.
I haven't cried in so long, and I'm scared for you.
NFSU
Drug Quiz
Your perfect drug is THE HALLUCINOGEN. Ahh, yes,
shrroms and acid, PCP, LSD, all the wonderful
acronyms of the alphabet belong to you and ONLY
you--and maybe that bunny from TV, if he joins
you tonight. Enjoy the colors, feel the music,
and remember that walls are not to be trusted.
What's your ideal drug?
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Post
Umm... I'm really bored right now.
Hi Mousegirl! <3~
Fucking Raccon!
Ok, I was feeding the raccoon that lets me feed it by hand tonite, and out of nowhere the fucker bites my finger! It takes me a second to realize what he did and out of sheer reflex I punched it in the head @..@
You know how bad I feel?
I punched a raccoon... in the head.
.... sadness. Sorry Nimbus! ;..;
Don't worry about the cuts, I'll take a piccy tomorrow. They are two really small paper-cut looking things that I cleaned out. Only drew a little blood.
January 7, 2004
Angst Out
Stolen from Bui's Xanga
1. Who the fuck are you? [Gomer Pile]
2. Last time you masturbated? [15 minutes ago]
3. Last time you took a shit? [Can't remember]
4. Weirdest thing you have masturbated to? [Weird to you or weird to me?]
5. What would you do with a tin of popcorn? [Throw it at a kid]
6. Last time you vacuumed your car? [You can do that?]
7. What would you do to the person you hate the most? [Carbomb.]
8. Last time you tickled somebody's ass or recieved an ass tickle? [Wtf is an asstickle?]
9. What type of refridgerator do you want in your home? [A cold one]
10. Vietnamese Pho or a year subscription to Penthouse. [Rare Breed.]
Remember What I don't forget
Its really early, and I did another blog scan. You know, I read about all these people falling for eachother, and then I think that it must be amazing. Then a weird feeling hits me, assuring me that its amazing, followed by the remembrance that I have fallen in love; and no, its not hard on the knees (bonus points to person to gets that reference.)
I mean... I love Navleen, and it sucks I can't see her. I wont angst about it, because thats now how we work. But I was just reading, some have had their crushes/loves over for a few days. Some couples go out just to drive. Some plan to meet up later this year. I have mine, and... I can't see her. Right now she is sleeping in her bed no more than 5 miles away, and it makes no difference.
I don't think anyone has ever explained to you (the audience) how severly quiet we have to be. To put it bluntly, I do not exist to her parents. They do not know what I look like, they have never heard my name, they can't identify me in a lineup, on the phone, in a book, nothing. They have never seen me, and yet I have been in their very house as they were home - hiding from them just so I could stay with my love that much longer.
We really can't say what would happen other than her entire family disowning her; if they find out about us right now. So the only plan we have is time, once she is out of school and starting to be more trusted, we might say something.
Ok... fuck not angsting, need to release.
Break Down
I have broke down.
Run out.
Doc is tired.
He is desperatley tired.
I found out recently, as did my mother, that my dad still is seeing someone else. I also found out a lot of shit about my life that may not be truthful in regards to him. The last 7 years of my life around my father have all been a dramatic play, so beautifuly and maticulously designed that nobody even had a hint of it. I have found out how badly my family is messed up.
On my mom's side, it is the ghetto. Not "reusing paper plates, haha" kind of ghetto. I mean selling drugs and waiting for welfare checks to SURVIVE kind of ghetto. My cousin lives in a house with no hot water and my aunt was arrested on grand theft auto not too long ago. My grandma is fucking insane, and gives her pain medication to my "uncle" to support his habit.
On my father's side you have a bunch of people who hate my mother and her family. My aunt invited my dad's affair over to Thanksgiving dinner saying "Who cares if Charlene is there, he really loves you." She is talking to a women outside of my dad's marriage, and talking bad about my mother. My nana (grandma) knows everything and says nothing, plays the 'I'm too old to remember" bits which is bull. My cousin Travis is now on a suspended license, and if he gets caught, he will be serving jail for some reason or another.
Not one marriage in my ENTIRE FAMILY TREE has lasted "till death do them part." Not one.
And if my mom goes through with this, the longest relationship of 22 odd years will be no more come six months. I will have to look for another car, we might have to move out because I am not going to want to live with my father. I don't understand, people... don't understand what helplessness feels like until you watch your own mother cry in front of her children because she doesn't know what she did to cause it.
I have helped many poeple in my life. I have talked friends through putting the knife down and I have calmed many a frantic mind from overthinking situations. I act like a diplomat of common sense and logic, making sure both stay in check when things pile up.
I can't meditate. This scares me. For a bit over a year now I meditate for at least 20 minutes out of the day. I cannot seem to calm my mind enough. Whenever I do I break... into tears. People don't know how fragile the strings holding my smile up are. I would just sit there, litererally, yelling at myself to calm down, talking myself through things, knowing I sound crazy.
The more I think the more I wish I could steal away. I wish I could steal away from everyone, and just take Navleen with me. Steal from her problems, steal from my problems and just drive, it doesn't matter where. I just want some clear thought again.
I cannot let people see me cry, because then it shows them I cannot control my emotions, and in turn they don't listen to my advice.
I'm strong for you all.
And despite how depressing this all sounds, I have a weak smile on my face because I know I am strong. I know I will smile. I know the next person that messages me is going to get a "hihi ^..^" and maybe a hug.
I know more about me than I thought I did. Thanks for listening~
Not Shocked, now give me money.
| Disorder | Rating |
| Paranoid: | Low |
| Schizoid: | Low |
| Schizotypal: | Low |
| Antisocial: | Low |
| Borderline: | Low |
| Histrionic: | High |
| Narcissistic: | High |
| Avoidant: | Low |
| Dependent: | Low |
| Obsessive-Compulsive: | Low |
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! -- | |
Irony.
So... three days ago I get Need for Speed: Underground.
Today I get a speeding ticket.
Now thats some fucking irony folks.
I wonder if I can sue. I mean, if they can sue Rockstar for making children violent, can I sue EA for making me crave a bit more in the speed department? And it wasn't even all that fast anways, just 20 over the limit. Even though I was smiling and chuckling at the irony, which I explained to the officer who found it funny; my hands wouldn't stop shaking. Heh, yeah, I'm a pussy but it was the first time I have had any sort of law contact with a police officer.
Need for Speed: Underground
Yeah. I like this game. I know that is a ricer game, but if you look past it, it is a solid game. The crashing sucks, no damage EVER, but other than that, its fun and really big. I have been playing non-stop for about 2 days, and only 1/3rd of the way done.
My ride is a candy apple red VW Golf GTI. I will get specs and pics later, but basically everything is red, except the bling bling rims, spoiler, brake calipers, and muffler. I also have a white flame vinyl along the side. Inspired by VC... again. Got a sweet hood, and roof air scoop to match. Waiting to get a pulsing red neon light underneath, but its fine now.
Capcom Vs. SNK 2eo
Found this game new at Fry's for 19.99, had to get it. Beat it on first try, plays like you would expect it to, smooth. I forgot how much I missed Guile's huge flatop. Oh the memories.
What would MJK do?
January 5, 2004
A real post
So yeah, its been a while since my last /real/ blog post so here we go.
Christmas
I scored /quite/ well on Christmas, so I might as well list what I recieved and sent out in all.
Gave:
Nimbus - The Animatrix
Pelican - 2 Classic N64 Games
SilverVixen - Super Metroid
AX - Furry Smut (That was hard to mail away ;..;)
Kalaco - $20 iTunes Gift Certificate
Brother - Life+ 5
Dad - Fuckign expensive ass media bag.
Mom - Perfume set and another book to her collection
Navleen - ... I'll wait till I give it to her tomorrow, JUST in case she manages to find this.
Recieved:
$160 Cash
Agent Smith Action Figure (teh pwn)
6x8 Wacom Tablet (teh pwn)
More shirts and shit (semi pwn)
10 gb iPod (wee)
Logitech Webcam (attention whore ACTIVATE)
Those were the things I can remember as of now.
All and all, Christmas was really fun and such.
New Years
Well then.
New Year's eve I went out to a rave and got /completley/ wasted. I can't even remember how I drove home I was so out of it. All I know is there were two people in my car the next morning, who I didn't know.
Work
I hate my job.
I hate Scott, my manager.
Today I applied to two more places, I'm trying to find a job somewhere I will like. I dont' care about wages or money anymore, I'm just sick of Scott's rude attitude. He gave my MOTHER attitude, what the fuck is with that? I plan on telling him that. I will put in my two weeks as soon as I get word I have another job, then on the last day, I will just let Scott know while, it was great working at Black Angus, working with him was never anything I EVER looked forward too. And that he smells. (Seriously he does.)
New Year's Eve
BTW, I was just kidding, if you couldn't guess. I spent the New Year on a Rush: The Rock, machine, racing away when the ball dropped. Me and Cail went bowling, and this girl kept checking him out. It was kind of cute, Cail needs a girlfriend.
Navleen is back!
Finally! She came back a few days ago and, as long as I can wake up in time, I will get to see her tomorrow morning before school!
Masturbation
I dunno, just felt like putting that in bold.
January 3, 2004
DefectChild #1
IxDefectChildxI (4:17:17 PM): do you ever stop promoting your site?
X DrGamez X (4:18:35 PM): Yes.
X DrGamez X (4:18:38 PM): When I am masturbating.
IxDefectChildxI (4:18:48 PM): interesting
IxDefectChildxI (4:18:57 PM): you masturbate too much then
Batman Comic
January 2, 2004
Wtf?
Random Scribbles
(This is a re-do of someone elses, I think she would look better with larger wings, so I gave them to her)
January 1, 2004
New iPod
Questionare of New Year
Basic Stuff:
[Full Name]: Gordon Allen Reynolds
[Spell your first name backwards]: Nodrog *www.Nodrog.com*
[The story behind your user name]: It goes way back. I was fresh onto the interenet, and everyone had these really cool names. I thought Warez was like, complete badass, and I like games. So I made Games with a z, for extreme coolness purposes, and decided it wasn't spiff enough. Then I saw Dr. Hrm. That sounded cool. Doctor Gamez. So thats what I have been ever since my entrance onto the net. The one AND FUCKING ONLY DrGamez.
[How old?]: 17
[Where do you live?]: SF Bay Area
[5 words that sum you up]: Powerful Honerable Lovable Friendly Funny
DESCRIBE YOUR:
[Hairbrush]: Hair... brush?
[Jewelry worn daily]: ... a watch?
[Pillow cover]: Star with red and whie stripe
[Coffee cup]: Whatever Black Angus uses.
[CD in stereo right now]: Haha, CDs, so old. IPOD REPREZENT.
[Piercing]: None
[What you are wearing now]: Blue boxers, pants taht are WAY too big, green/brown long sleeve shirt.
[Hair]: Red.
QUESTIONS:
[In my head]: Will I get the classes I want?
[Wishing]: I get the classes I want.
[After this]: I should probably go masturbate.
[Talking to]: Anything around me.
[Eating]: X-Mas candy
[Fetishes]: Light bondage, furry smut
[Some of your favorite movies]: The Matrix Trilogy
[Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming months]: My birthday
[The last thing you ate?]: Candy, VC, VC, Popcorn
[Something that you are deathly afraid of?]: Losting respect
[Do you like candles]: Its... a burning hunk of wax.
[Do you like incense]: No, wierd smells filling my room happen all on their own mind you.
[Do you believe in love]: *nods* n..n!
[Do you believe in soul mates]: Not by fate, but yes.
[Do you believe in love at first sight]: Haha, no.
[Do you believe in forgiveness]: I have a hard time not forgiving someone.
[If you could have any animal for a pet]: Another Samoyed.
[What are 3 cities you wouldn't mind relocating to?]: SanFran, NewYork, LA
[What's something you wish you could understand better?]: My mind
[Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time?]: Navleen u..u;
In the last 24 hours, have you:
01. [Cried:] Missed it by 2 hours.
02. [Bought something]: Yes
03. [Gotten sick]: No
04. [Sang]: Yea
05. [Eaten]: Yea
06. [Been kissed]: No
07. [Felt stupid]: Yea
08. [Wanted to tell someone you loved them, but didn't]: No
09. [Met someone new]: Yea
10. [Moved on]: Yea
11. [Talked to an ex]: Yea
12. [Talked to someone you have a crush on]: No
13. [Had a serious talk]: Yea
14. [Missed someone]: Yea
15. [Hugged someone]: No
16. [Fought with your parents]: No
17. [Dreamed about someone you can't be with]: Yea
18. [Watched a movie?]: Yea
19. [Which one?]: Paycheck
[You]
01. [Best girl friend(s)]: Amy, Rin, Natalie, Cathy
02. [Best guy friend(s)]: Nimbus, Jason, Cail
03. [Boy/Girlfriend?]: Navleen!
04. [If no, current dating partner]: - - - -
05. [Hobbies]: Drawing
06. [Pager/Cell]: Nope and happy.
07. [Are you center of attention or the wallflower]: Attention whore to the max.
08. [What type automobile do you drive]: Honda Accord
09. [What type automobile do you wish you can drive]: Anything
10. [Would you rather be with friends or on a date?]: Friends
11. [Where is the best hangout]: DDR Machine
12. [Do you have a job]: Busser/Host/Matinance @ Black Angus
13. [Do you like being around people]: Yea
[Who]:
01. [Have you known the longest]: Jon Bui
02. [Do you argue the most with]: Caligo
03. [Is the trustworthiest]: Nimbus
04. [Makes you laugh the most]: My mind
05. [Has been there through all the hard times]: (This sounds pitiful) Myself
06. [Has the coolest parents]: Me I think, haha
07. [Has the coolest siblings]: Ugh, nobody I know.
08. [Is the most blunt]: Not sure
Personal:
[Who is your role model]: Don't have one
[What are some of your pets]: 7 Cats.
[Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with]: No
[Have you ever cried over the opposite sex]: Yes
[Ever wanted to get revenge on someone because they hurt you]: Used to, not anymore
[Rather be dumper or dumped]: Why dump when you can talk it over? Dipshits...
[Longest Relationship]: This one... forget how long. A year and something.
[Rather have a relationship or a "hookup"]: Relationship.
[Want someone you don't have right now]: Napes.
[Ever liked your best guy/girl friend]: Yea
[Do you want to get married]: Yea
[Do you want kids]: Not sure yet
[Do you believe in psychics?]: Nope
[person whom you will marry at this point in time]: *blushes* #n..n#
[What is your favorite part of your physical appearance]: What isn't good on my body?
[What is your favorite part of your emotional being]: The simple fact that it is impossible to hate me.
[Are you happy with you]: God yes.
My Mind Works in Mysterious Ways
I just wanted to show you all, I'm not all crackhead randomness and silly. I have a side to me that thinks many levels beyond what even I understand.
Hello 04
So, '04 is upon us, and if I had any New Year resolutions, I would list them about now. Instead, I will reflect on the stuff that has happened.
ItsTheDoc.net Established
DGLA Established
AGNPH Revived
Lasted a year with Navleen
Made it through first quarter of college
Improved art skill
Became another family statistic for divorce
Managed to to kill myself in an explosion (Personal best n..n)
Got a job
And probably a bit more I can't remember.
New Years
Well yesterday was pretty uneventfull. I woke up and went to work around 12. I had to do a lot of shitwork, cleaning out moldy ice wells, and whatnot. I'm just glad I was out of there at 3. I chilled at home for a bit and decided to go to the mall to blow some money. APPARENTLY they closed at like... 6, so I decided to go the movies with Cail instead. Paycheck was the movie, and as many other Jon Woo flicks, this one kicked major ass. Afterwards we went bowling, and I totally kicked his hass 94 to 65. There was this girl that kept coming around, I think she liked Cail or something. I swear she was in my graduating class. Oh well.
Web Cam
http://drgamez.ww.com